Just Venting My Brain

I wish I had a realistic instruction manual when my boys were born. Here are a few things I wanna know.

1. How do you keep and eye on two children at all times, while working, keeping a house clean, and dinner on the table? You know your eyes don't jump out of your head and chase them around.

2. Why do people who've never had a child think they know the best how to deal with your children? The little one ran off once when I turned my back for one second. He was gone for about fifteen minutes. The whole neighborhood was looking for him. What happened you might ask? He walks up the street and wants to know why mommy's crying. This isn't the point of this. That is what happened next. A woman from the next street over marches up to me as I'm yelling at this wayward child. And what does this bitch say? "You are a bad mother. How dare you let your child run off like that? You always have to watch them every minute of everyday." At which point I am pissed beyond all measure. Then I asked her "Do you have any children?" What do you think she said? No! Why would I want to have any of those smelly little monsters?" Can you believe that? No, kids. Doesn't even want any and she's telling me how to raise mine. I love my kids more than anything else in the world. People without kids should not advise others on how to raise thiers.

3. How do you get doctors to believe your child is really sick? When I was trying to get people to believe my son was having seizures no one would belive me. I knew my mother in-law had the absense seizures or petiet mal seizures. My son would stop midword and space off and then come back into his head (as I call it) and finish the word and go on like nothing had happened. I researched the seizures on the internet before I made a doctors appointment. I even called the inlaws to get the full history of epilepsy in the family. Even after all this research not even my husband or the doctors would believe me. They said I was over reacting to simple daydreaming. Well, Bitch guess who was right? That's right me. The person who spent 24 hours a day seven days a week with the kid. The EEG said seizure disorder. Now he' s on meds that help but he still has the seizures almost daily. And this is the worst thing of all. Even with the diagnosis his teachers still call me about him not paying attention while daydreaming in class.


4. Medicines that help also have bad side effects in children.
We have blood draws done every 3-6 monthes. My 7 year old is the only first grader in his class that knows the person who draws the blood is a flabotomist(my spelling sucks). The medication my son is on can cause liver and or kidney damage. The funest part is that when we raise his dosage of meds, which we will probably do next month when school's out, he has to be carried everywhere because he can't walk or sit up on his own. Anything that effects the brain chemistry can upset the equellibrium. Causing a perfectly healthy looking child to stager around like a drunk, fall down while trying to walk, and be sitting in a chair just fine and then just fall over onto the floor and hurt themselves.


These are things that have no real answers. They should but they don't so we just struggle on through life and pretend we have the answers to the questions. We do our best and that is all we can do. The only things that really matter are our families and their health and safety. Everything else is just noise in the background.

I think my 32 birthday comming up this Wed. is whats causeing me to be so reflective about my life. Oh well, ttfn (tah, tah for now).