I'm thinking about trying to write spoof porn.

Ok, for anyone who has read my attempt at writing a sex scene for my vampire book. Yes I could write really crappy porn novels. Complete with quivering members and pouting nipples. Yes, Madame I think I could actually work in a few pouting nipples. Though I'm wondering if a were-female would have more than two. So, the question is how the hell do you get 6-8 nipples to pout. Of course they would have to be very disappointed. Or at least 3-5 of them would be. Yes, I'm rambling. Why??? Because I fucking feel like it. Damnit.

I have to get rid of my cat. He was spotted today. Of course I lied and said he was my mom's and that she was in the hospital and he had to go to the vet today so my family dropped him off. Well, I think my darling Zevon is going to take him to the pound while I'm at work. I am really sad about this he has been my baby for a year. He was so weak he couldn't raise his head or walk when I got him. Now he has to go away.

My oldest is at church camp with his grandma and aunite baby bear. Things are going to be ok I guess. This week I learned I'm probably only working in the deli for the rest of this month. Then I'm back to bagging groceries. Yippy skippy. Also I had a H.U.D. review this last month so my rent went up due to all the hours I've been getting in the deli. So, now instead of paying 237.00 per month I'm now going to have to pay 324.00 per month. That's a huge jump. Also I got a letter yesterday that said that I had to call the garentor on my student loan. The letter said you need to make arrangements for payments or we are taking your tax money until the debt is paid off. Ok, my student loan has been garnishing my paycheck for almost 2 years. In that time instead of going down the total amount owed has gone up by almost 3,000. So, now they are going to stop the garnishment and I have to pay 135.00 per month starting next month. This month the payment is only 75.00. That is because I'm getting garnished for two weeks. At least I got my H.U.D. reinspection done, and it passed.

I have had a hell of a week. There are a few things I won't put on here. They are way TMI and besides they are not my TMI to share. I also have a foodstamp review next week. It's let see how much we can screw old Doublebagger and not give her a kiss.

My darling Zevon is leaving Monday to visit his sister in Virginia for three and a half weeks. I will miss him dearly. I love him so very much. I also have a lot of insecurities about this. I know he misses the east coast. I see it in his face when he talks about it, and movies like Mystic Pizza make him homesick. I think my biggest fear is that he will not come back, or that he'll meet someone he likes more. I know in my heart this won't happen. That he loves me and I love him, but I don't know. I'm just having a bad week. The lack of sleep isn't helping much. This started out as such an upbeat post and now it's sad, lonely, and pathetic. Damn I suck.

That's all for right now.

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